I always find myself searching for those people where I can be extremely comfortable with.
Like all the time.
I open up to people who are willing to let me be in there life.
It's nice.
It's that warm feeling you get in the heart that says " He/She'll stay , go on"
I like that.
I really do.
But it doesn't happen so naturally,
I've never rejected anyone.
Most of the time, people reject more often.
Like their always busy, always.
I'm like the one and only person that is forever free, forever.
I need companionship, heavily.
 Yet, I dun show them out, at all.
I turn all my feelings, all of them, into smiles.
Rarely, very rare, people see me upset and stuff.
I will just smile it off, laugh it off.
I dun understand why, but I guess, I'm just afraid.
Yea, that's the highest possibility there is.
I guess friends influence me the most.
Or should I say, the people that I hang out with ?
Will be going to Taiwan with poly people.
I wonder how many of them are as good as I perceived them to be ?
' Steady ' is a word that most people lack.
It's so hard to find in people my age.
All of them are scared of this, scared of that.
You're only young once, just do it man.
There is so much things to say, so much things to do.
There is just no time for them.
I've been sleeping like 4-7 hours on weekdays all the time.
Guess I just have to cut down on gaming and surfing net randomly.

Even the ugly people got a girl yet I'm still single.

O.o blogger change until so weird .

Complaining about this , about that.

Everything doesn't seem to go the way I wanted all the time.

Yet, I'm not doing anything to stop all this things from becoming like this.

It's like wanting it to happen it my way magically, a miracle.

Yes, a miracle is what I need.

But does miracle even exist ?

I doubt so.

Only people that works hard deserve how they want it be.

But when being hard working doesn't help as well,

Why work so hard ?

Poly friends, the people that I have so much opinion on.

Lol .

This would be fun I think ?

Is a place out of Singapore after all ~

This post is specially dedicated to CHAN AN QI :D

This time, it's clique(s).

Does cliques even last ?

For so many years, the number of classes I went to,

I never had a proper clique.

I dun know why also,

I would love to know though.

I would jump from this clique,

go to the cool clique,

then the geek clique,

girls clique, boys clique.

Is like I dun belong to anyone of them,

yet, at the same time,

I can fit into anyone of them.

But I won't know if they truly feel that way.

It's more of a " the gate to the heart is open, but the door to the bottom is locked."

They invite me , but I won't know any secrets of theirs.

Whether they know mine or not is another thing though.

But the funny thing is, I would be close to that one or two person in each clique.

Like a group of 4-5, I would be close with like 1 or 2 only.

Where I feel really comfortable,

No awkward moments,

Everything can be shared and talked about.

But when you put the people I'm close with together,

They dun make sense at all.

Lol .

It's weird how I interact with people, come to think about it.

Sec 1 , no clique.

Sec 2 , nope still none.

Sec 3 , Hmmm .. Nah . Still dun have.

Sec 3 again , Maybe have ? But like not very close also.

Sec 4 , Quite close I guess ?

Poly , Hah . Got clique , but I'm not close with them.

Does that sounds like a clique ? I don't think so.

They go out also never call me or what not.

Oh well, I can't say I don't want a clique.

But, then again, I can't say I want either.

It's not a matter of myself,

it's the entire community.

Whether or not the other party wants to bond with you or not too.

But I'm glad that I have friends that I'm so close with :D

Like really close, even after so long no chat,

We're still close ! ^^

Especially you who is currently reading this,

You having access over here means you made it through my secondary life.

And, you'll be part of my life ! Hahaha . Okay this is mushy.

Well, I do hope we don't lost touch.

Although I don't even know how many people is reading this.

Treasure the people around you before it's too late,
Treat them well before they leave.

It's officially the end of Year 1 ~

April 2011 to April 2012.

Well , class of B1H02.

Goods and Bads,

I think more or less equal ?

There are good of the class and bad of the class.

Although i tend the view the bad more strongly.

I dun know why ~

So, still thinking whether to let my poly friends know of this blog or not.

Although I think some of them found out already ?

There will always be ninja that know of this blog one .

For sure, I've pretty much convinced myself on this point.

Wonder what it'll be in year 2.

Ahh ~ I dun know what to blog suddenly.

Lol .

I'm just spamming whatever I'm saying in my mind.

HAHAHA ~

Oh my class,

Projects , stayovers , rush , peer evaluation.

Hais, dun say better -.-

Till next time ~